Feeling Other: Relapse

SCENE. Dark room, one lamp lit. Sitting across from each other, T and T. Amy Winehouse playing in the background He Can Only Hold Her on repeat. On the side table Howard Sounes’ Amy, 27 and a newly opened box of cancer sticks. Tense atmosphere filled with memories of half-truths and substandard words of encouragement. Same faces but completely…

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The Ease Of Letting Go

She stopped trying so hard, left despite how much she wanted to stay. Experienced the agitation of not wanting to let go. So she still clung on. In subtle ways. She knew she was still there, she was still angry, she was still bitter. I got home and watered my succulents. On the verge of death I…

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For Emma, Forever Ago

“You own everything that happened to you.  Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them,  they should have behaved better.” – Anne Lamott You are going to hate this because I am going to explicitly explain myself in all the ways you advised me against. You will also hate it because…

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Mind > Matter

I have a crush on his mind. It remains unattended. Acknowledging it would lend to certain realms of the mind I’d rather remain oblivious to. I’m not quite ready to intentionally feel so much of so much and so much… Abundance of abundance within abundance. He is the kind of too much which is just right…

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Longing Soul

What does your soul long for? Mine longs for an artistic soul mate One that sees the beauty of embracing our natural nude states of being One that values the exquisite imperfections of each other’s bodies And would not spare a moment to capture each one What does your soul long for? The connection of…

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